I’m starting to think there is a good chance blogging may be sending me insane. No really, I may need to pay money and go and talk to someone. But where the hell am I going to find a therapist conversant in wordpress.com vs wordpress.org/google page ranks/the merits of posting daily – or not/the possibility of earning an income from a blog/what design is the most attractive on your home page and so on and so on? Do you think therapy is going to have to start to develop a social media strain? You know a whole uni course on how to counsel people ravaged by the online world?
It seems blogging is roller coaster ride in which I am blindfolded and dipping UP and DOWN in a confused whirl of fumbling antics without any real idea of what I am doing. By the way I HATE rollercoasters.
Last week I was sad because I discovered Google Page Rank is some measure of blogging influence – mine was 0. This week I discover Google have updated their rankings and I have gone from 0 to 3. Yay me. I don’t know what I did to get that, I don’t know what it means, I don’t know why/if it is important but hey I got 3 out 10 for the exam, yay me! See rollercoaster DOWN and UP.
Ever since I moved from wordpress.com to a self-hosted site on wordpress.org I’ve been dealing with some psychological issues. You see on wp.com I had a special feature which counted ALL my followers – email subscribers/wp.com followers/Twitter/Facebook. There was this lovely number of 500 in my stats which made me feel like I was on the way. 500 people had clicked little buttons to say they LIKED me enough to FOLLOW me. I don’t know where I was leading to but they were FOLLOWING! I was almost popular (now is not the time to remind me that popular bloggers have thousands upon thousands of followers).
Once I moved I could no longer count my Twitter/Facebook followers in my stats which was sad but at least they were still there, over in Twitter following my mute tweets or at Facebook reading the links back to my blog so that was OK.
What really sent me into a downward spiral though was the 150 wp.com subscribers I lost. ‘Cause they were signed up under their wp.com accounts they couldn’t be transferred over. My absolutely wonderful, beautiful email followers were transferred and I am deeply grateful for those 129 sweet individuals who have been the only thing stopping me from completely losing my mind and ditching the blog into the big black hole of deserted blogs swirling around in the blogosphere, forlorn souls forever stuck in the time of the “last post”.
The “Happiness Engineer” who tried to deal with my grief over my lost subscribers cheerily informed me they would find me again, I had the old site redirected so they it wouldn’t take them long to reconnect. Poor dear, deluded lady she doesn’t understand the process. People are busy. One day a sentence or two amuses them in a post they have stumbled into by accident, they click a button to follow, then when the posts appear in their inbox they may read, they may not. If the posts stop appearing they don’t notice, unless they are really dedicated readers (love you Madhu at The Urge to Wander who jumped through extraordinary hoops to find and follow me again). Meanwhile the blogger pouring her heart and soul into her little bit of the internet, where it’s all a numbers game, loses just a little bit of her blogging mojo as she attempts to start over.
Sadly, I lost the details of who my subscribers were after the TRANSFER. They disappeared from my stats and I had no way of retrieving their details. Gone into the swirl of wp.com data processing.
For a a while wp.org made a deliberate attempt to really screw with my head by listing the old NUMBER of followers, while only letting me see the email subscribers. It felt they were so near, I could almost touch them, but I had no way of communicating, no way of knowing if they were missing me?
However, today an idea crossed my befuddled mind. It could be sheer genius. Or it could be a clear sign of insanity. The jury is still out on which it is, but here goes. I am a hoarder who never throws anything out (yes I know I worry I’ll end up a old lady living in one of those houses packed to the rafters with old newspapers, magazines and books too but I’m working on it). So my email account has 32,000 emails in it. Yes I know that is bad, I’ll get to it ok. However, that means I still have the emails wp.com when people signed up to the old blog.
So here’s my great plan. I’m going to list them all here. They will get a pingback to tell them someone had mentioned them (they can just delete it). Then they will rediscover the magnificence that is Shambolic Living and go “that’s what’s been missing in my life” and then what they will re-subscribe as an email follower right here on shambolicliving.com and then they will enjoy my posts again. Or they may decide they dodged a bullet when they were lost and are happy to remain unsubscribed and that’s OK. At least I’ll know I’ve done everything I can to reconnect.
So in a plaintive cry from a woman on the edge here’s my tribute list of the lost subscribers (or the 70 I could manage to find) in the hope they may like to follow via email (or twitter or RSS or Facebook). (PS Email subscribers with a blog don’t worry I’m working on a blogroll page specially for you that will list links to all of your blogs too).
Wow what an interesting exercise! There’s such a variety of blogs there, if you’ve got nothing to do today click on a few and take a look!